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[01 Mar 2010|05:30pm] |
A new month, man. March! St. Patrick's day only a couple weeks away, and I'm twenty-six as of yesterday. Funny, it feels different than twenty-five but only in that things were a lot different last March, y'know?
Sometimes I like to think if I had been a leap year baby, y'know? How rockin' would it be to say you were actually only six and a half and have it be true. That'd help a lot of people stay young I guess, but as for me, I'm all right with the whole closer-to-thirty than twenty business. It's just a year, y'know? People get older and life happens, and what's the point of stressing over a number, man? Age is all in your mind. How young do you feel?
I've been feeling older than twenty-six lately, with everything that's happened, but the cycle goes on and every day there's a moment where I feel like a dumb seventeen year old again, or like I've just hit twenty-three and am kissing Philibuster again for the first time. Even after our second Valentine's together, all we did was lounge about all day and shag and enjoy each other's company and what else could you ask for on a day like that? Presents are overrated (although, never unappreciated, everyone who sent me something, you're the grooviest lot of friends a girl could have, y'know?) - I love people way more. I love to spend time with them, talk with them, laugh with them, make love to hug them, touch them, just... be in the moment. With one person or many, there's nothing to make you feel more alive, or younger, or wiser, or whatever... than that. Man, I miss my dad. But of everything, I loved him, and he was a brill dad, and he loved me and my family, and if there's one thing I would have done a bit different, it'd have been to spend more time just... listening to him. I'm not trying to get all depressing, mind, I'm actually happy to say that at least we never held back. Same with mum. We might get into our kerfuffles now and again, but I'd rather that than not talk to her, I guess. I didn't show that very well this past year, but I'm going to now. Live and learn and love.
I dunno. Birthdays, even if they're just days, always make me light up and think, y'know? Things might be different this time around, but that only makes me smile at how everything could be so much better come next February 28th. Hell, Mum's already starting to prod me about an engagement ring again. Hear that, Phil? She's gonna be all right, man.
Mere - sign me up for some of those tickets, yeah?
Stay safe tonight, you lot.
Peace & love.
[Warded to Mina, Kamal, Nora, Pepper, Hope]
All right, lovelies?
[Warded to Addie]
And the grapevine tells me... do I owe you a congrats, m'dear?
[Warded to Philip]
Philly, love of my life, geek of my galaxy, stud of my... uh, stars? - I'm feeling high and lazy and I say you get thai for us tonight before curfew, and I'll make sure the night in isn't a dull one, yeah?
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